“Poor sleepers should endeavor to compose themselves. Tampering with empty space, stirring up echoes in pitch-black pits of darkness is scarcely sedative. 


Walter de la Mare, Great Tales of Terror and the Supernatural




I can't tell you the last time I've had a good night sleep. 
Going to bed has become a stressful time, actually I loathe it. No matter how exhausted I am or make myself I just can't seem to get an entire night of restful sleep.
Many a night I stream movies into the wee hours of the morning.

Eating pot does help quite a bit but I try to not self medicate regularly as I am attempting to get my body back to a natural rhythm.

From an Oriental medical perspective following the circadian rhythm and 5 element theory vital energy flows through the twelve organs and completes one cycle every twenty-four hours. The Chinese Organ Clock shows the circadian flow of the vital energy through various organ systems in relation to the time of day. Each organ has maximum energy for two hours. I awaken around 1 am every night which is the time for the liver (1-3am) and lung energy is from 3-5am. When our vital organs are compromised or diseased we are affected during the maximum energy times for the organs.

The lungs are obvious for me and my poor liver has been so taxed with all of the radiation and pharmaceutical drugs.
I have to be careful with any sort of detoxing since my body is so depleted at present.

There is allot of work to be done. It's not just a matter of taking a tablet once a day for the cancer. There is food and supplement therapy and many practices (meditation for example) if I want to regain my vitality and strengthen my whole body.